I’ve been thinking a lot about the past. My past. Like…it wasn’t seen that I was prioritizing my relationship. I acknowledged that and tried to show the difference. I wasn’t really given a chance. Prioritization meant losing the essence of me to cater to someone else. How is that even healthy? No seriously. How can …
The Need To Write…
I kept a journal. I haven’t opened it nor written in it all year. It served its time. It served its purpose. Writing is a release. A release that is needed at times. One of those times is now. I’m back.
I’m Tired Of Hurting
There’s a saying that says, “I attract. I don’t chase.” That resonates with me. In all of my relationships, it was something that drew others to me. I didn’t seek them. They sought me. I’ve had wonderful relationships, but they weren’t meant to last forever. They were seasonal. I have no idea why they were …
Don’t Fumble Us
“I unintentionally fumbled you. You have the opportunity not to fumble us.” I realize the mistakes I’ve made. The thing is…I didn’t realize then. It took a bad breakup for me to realize it. But I did. Was it too late? Here’s the thing, it doesn’t have to be. If you really want to be …
Loneliness Follows
Healing is a process. Part of that process can include loneliness.
HEALING BUT NOT HEALED…
In a perfect world, I wouldn’t be in this situation. In a perfect world, I wouldn’t have been depressed. In a perfect world, I’d be in a happy and healthy relationship. In a perfect world, I’d already be healed. But we all know this world ain’t perfect. I’ve read so much about how to get …
HAPPY FREAKING NEW YEAR!!!
I legit have been waiting for this moment. I’ve been waiting to get to 2022. 2021 threw daggers at me during the end of the year. It altered the course of my future, while damaging me emotionally in the process. It was like I was stuck in a ball of unhappiness, so I yearned for …
This Christmas…Sucks!!!
What do the lonely do at Christmas? Suffer.
Sleep Escapes Me
I look forward to sleep. Usually during those hours of slumber I don’t feel. I don’t feel the pain that nudges at my heart. Bruising it effortlessly and endlessly. I don’t feel the emptiness of being alone. Not being with the one I love…the one I want to be with. Not feeling a hurtful type …
Maybe It’s Me
I think I was smarter when I was younger. Back then I knew what I wanted. More importantly, I knew what I didn’t want. I didn’t want a longterm relationship. So I didn’t seek one. I didn’t make promises and plans. I didn’t lead anybody on. I was upfront. Well let me back up. With …
D. Block 